Preparedness

I hate being unprepared. I feel so powerless, so useless. Especially when I'm in a show. When I don't have my lines memorized, or my dances learned, or my songs perfect, or my blocking solid and everyone else does! I feel stupid. Incredibly moronic. Like when I was in Narnia, my Mrs. Beaver knew all of her lines, all of her dances, all of her songs etc. way before I had. And she made me look stupid by how great she was. I still asked for lines while she lead everyone in the dances she knew that others didn't. She's incredibly talented, and when I was unprepared l looked horrible, and she looked awesome. I also hate being unprepared for class. That's why I have everything in my backpack! So I never leave anything behind. When I forget I have homework, or a quiz/test I get all bummed. Then I do bad, resulting in lower grades, then lower GPA, then raging parents, etcetera etcetera etcetera. I hate being unprepared.